Never good with titles.

Blogging and reading blogs has given me some major encouragement, inspiration and the ability to connect with some amazing people.

I lost my Dad 10 days after his 60th birthday. He was one of the 40+ Veterans that died due to the disgusting mismanagement of the VA.
And this Daddy's girl (me) had to say goodbye to her Dad before he was able to meet any Grandchildren.
I lost the man that loved me more than the woman who gave birth to me. And who lost a fortune, house & everything to keep me safe and raise me.

Less than a month later...Grandpapa (and my Dad's namesake) went home in his sleep.
Each day since, my husband takes me aside and tells me.....
"This is the day the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it."
That SO helps me focus on what I have. What the Lord has given to me. And that I KNOW my Daddy and Grandpa are with him. I may hurt but they no longer do. And THAT is what matters. They are with the Lord, the utmost and perfect reward.

SO....to help further along the healing process... I'm back. Just to share my thoughts and things I think might inspire others.
Not sure that anyone cares.
But here I stand.
With open arms.
Need a friend or a shoulder?
I'm HERE! :)

My blogging return.

Moth captured by Android

I found this clinging to our garage today. Tomorrow I shall go to the library and find out just what this glorious creature is!

Striving to meet Daily Success & venting thoughts and frustrations.

This (see attached photo) Daily Success e-mail really got me thinking.
Even more so because of my current situation.
I'm floundering a bit without my home church in Tennessee.
For the past year+ we have been living outside of Chicago because of my husbands work.
And even through I'm kinda new to this whole internet/ social networking thing.
I really feel it is a great way to find and connect with like-minded individuals. Especially since (and sadly) a majority of my peer group seems so far away from walking the best road in life...humility, righteousness and with the Lord.
I myself struggle with such but I'm first to admit my faults and I know only the Lord can help.

I think writing out my frustrations and thoughts could be very helpful.
I long for earthly guidance, my ladies bible study at home. But for now I shall keep my thoughts here.

I came to care for Baby L due to the fact I am one of the few "stay at home wives" in the neighborhood co-op.
I will NOT conform to society's thoughts...."stay at home wives" is not a job.
Sorry, I do not agree.
We have a job! The best one I can ever imagine.....being our husbands helpmeets! And in my case that is preparing me for the Lords greatest gift and job......Mother!
To be trusted with the care of & to watch this wee life (Baby L)  grow in front of me....is an indescribable blessing and education.

Hence, I keep finding myself thinking of Psalm 139:14.

"I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well."

As a wife and woman who sometimes struggles with the length of time in which the Lord is commanding me to be solely a wife (not wife and a mother)
  I like to find solace in something a dear lady from my bible study (at home in TN) said about Psalm 139:14.....

"We were created by God in total love, everything about us, physically and otherwise...We are NOT animals and we are not some cosmic or evolutionary accident without meaning or purpose...and be-fore birth, we were NOT "just a fetus" or some biological mass that could be removed if we were considered a hindrance or inconvenience
to be tolerated throughout life.

Each and every one of us is special and unique and irreplaceable in the
sight of God and we were just as MUCH alive and human at the very moment of conception as we are right now..regardless of what lies one
hears from the radical feminists and planned parenthood, et al. We are
so very precious and loved and from the moment of conception, we will
NEVER cease to exist. Never.

We are made in the image and likeness of God. God knows every hair on our heads...and everything else about us and He is there...and He knows where we are and what we are going through every moment of everyday!"
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He is there and He knows where we are and what we are going through, every moment of everyday!

He IS!
I don't think it was a fluke that Baby L came into my care.
I think the Lord is giving me this task for a reason. I must trust in His timing.

Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord!

In my neighborhood co-op, I'm the only "stay at home wife" (their words, not my own) signed up.
I'm taking 24-7hr care of a dear 3 month old. Her parents sadly had to travel at a moment's notice to deal with a parents death in England.

Life is topsy-turvy because of her.
AKA- life couldn't be better!

Smartphone photography....life caught in the moment..

This was the view from our kitchen window last night. Much too glorious not to share. The Lords perfection....

Since I was in the middle of cooking dinner these were taken with my Samsung Galaxy S3. No editing or anything like that. 

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 -And God said,This is the token of the covenant which I make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations. I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth.- 

   ~Genesis-9:12-13

I was not blessed with Godly parents.
However, I was blessed with three insanely strong, most amazing and Godly spiritual mothers...my Grandma and her 2 sister's, my great Aunts. Auntie J left us to go home to the Lord in 2009.

And now my sweet Gram and too soon after, Auntie Em (YES, like in The Wizard of Oz! :-)) have left me to be with the Lord.
Hence my lack of posts.

I'm struggling.
I'm crying out to the Lord.


I miss Tennessee and my home church so much right now.
We shall be moving back of course....that time can't come fast enough.